Wednesday, February 22, 2012
I don't know how many of you still read this space, but this post is dedicated to one person.
This is someone who was unrelevant to me, but have since impacted my life since our paths crossed. This someone has lived to become part of my life, a part of me that cannot be replaced or forgotten, close to the heart. I'd never be able to imagine what would have happened if I did not initiate to take the meal break together 44months back. I'd never be able to understand or experience how much I can depend on somebody. I'd definitely not know what the two words "true feelings" meant.
It's you, who melted the wall and touched my heart. It's also through you that I felt what's warmth and how the whole world doesn't matter, as long as you are with me. You unconsciously taught me how to be oblivious of the surrounding and focus on nothing else but you.
We have come this far, further than anyone could have foreseen, to prove one thing and one thing only. Incompatibility is like a virus. It may first cause alot of issues,differences and sufferings, but can ultimately be eliminated with the help of the right vaccinations or medications. But if left untreated, it will mutate into a viral stain that will eventually be incurable and kill. You have shown me how future is built with our own hands.
No matter what we'll become, thank you. Thank you for accepting the meal offer. Thank you for being you. And thank you loving me.... <3
Never talk about love again. 9:59 PM.
I finally found a new job! Can't wait to tender tomorrow and finish serving my notice period! But I do hope I don't get too much of a culture shock when I go into the new company. I heard it's really v "Myself" kinda department. Oh wells, beats staying at cgw right? Too stagnant man..
Oops! Someone is peeping at me blogging! Will update more next time!
Never talk about love again. 11:53 PM.
Today was supposed to be the long awaited outcome day. But it didn't come as i expected. I thought maybe a straight rejection might be better than some vague answers trying to brush me off to give up. Like those pestering custs, I can't seem to give it up totally knowing that there is a loophole for me to still squeeze something out.
Oh nevermind... life still goes on, well maybe just not as colourful, but still not totally black out yet. Sanity is not mine. At least, not for now.
Back to work at cgw is nothing interesting other than the sprees that i fully allow myself to indulge in. Given the situation in my bank account now, this is all bullshit. -_-''
Alright alrights, enough of these whats not. Get back to being preoccupied with my shows.
Never talk about love again. 10:36 PM.
It has been post exams for 2 weeks now. All I've done is sleep eat watch drama eat sleep. Good life huh?
Thus far, I've conquered a Korean drama "49 days", 3 seasons of True Blood, some episodes of 蜡笔小新, finish up on Vampire diaries season 2 where I left off previously, and today I started on another new Korean drama "对我说谎试试" till epi 4.
But reality will be kicking in pretty soon as I'm gonna go back to wk at CGW in the coming week. and I'm sooooooo bloody broke now that I wanna cry.
Tonight seems to be a weird night. All the ingredients I need to sleep well are all here but I can't sleep at all! WHYYYY?!?!?!
Off the tracks, I think I'm a snack addict, like for real. I spent my day at boyfriend's while waiting for him to off work. Woke up at 1, cooked Maggie, and started watching my drama. Then at ard 3, I started craving for snacks and to my utmost horror, baby's house don't have a single snack! So I was telling myself "忍! Wait till yingdong off wk ask him buy for me!". And the next hour felt like days! And I started perspiring in cold sweat and my hands started to shiver! NO KIDDING!!! The next thing I knew was I was holding money and running downstairs to buy potato chips!! OMGZZ.... More of it, this isn't the first time that this has happened. And I don't know why. Only reason I can think of, is I'm a snack addict.
Scary much!
Never talk about love again. 2:58 AM.
Tomorrow is the start of judgement day. Finally it's here. I hope all our hardwork will not go in vain. Keeping my fingers crossed!
Here I sincerely pray with my fearful heart...
Never talk about love again. 6:26 PM.
The next time you see a snow globe,
I hope you think, I hope you remember me,
because I’m a snow globe, glass enclosed,
but I’m not as cold and solid as I appear to be.
Remember how fragile and breakable I am.
I pray you remember to hold me carefully
and to look pass my glassy surface,
find the secrets I keep hidden, in place.
Because I am a snow globe and I keep
inside me, magical white specks, tiny and small,
that dance and twirl at the slightest movement,
that darling when you shake, simply begins to fall.
Never talk about love again. 12:17 PM.
Just spent my precious 20minutes to watch the video 'Strangers, again' which was reposted on fb by like dozens of friends and strongly recommended by Kiki.
Hmm... It's actually very true and applies to all relationships.
Stage One: Meeting
Stage Two: The Chase
Stage Three: Honeymoon
Stage Four: Comfortable
Stage Five: Tolerance
Stage Six: Downhill
So the question is Marriage or Breakup? A question that got all of us stumped. I liked the sentence 'Its where not bad, but not great.'
So, which stage do u think we are at?
Never talk about love again. 4:04 PM.
