It is only today that I realize how much I hate to grow up.. I'd trade everything I have just so to have time stop at this point or would be even better to turn back 10 years. :(
I hate to work. I hate to study. I hate to learn what is love as it makes me vulnerable. I hate to be loved because it makes me extremely afraid of being alone. I hate burdens. I hate having to think and decide what I really want in life. I hate to be too skeptical about human behavior and the ability to see through and judge a person's character, which always expose me to the ugly side of human.
It doesn't mean that I don't love him or he doesn't love me. I love him and i ain't regretting that I chose him. I just wish that I could live in my own world of fantasy where everything is soooo pretty. No money to work for, no people with ugly thoughts, no worries, no burden, no plans to make.. Just living life the way as I wished.
I wish I could leave everything here and start a different life from what I'm in now. But I ain't no ostrich. I'm just trying my best to hold on to the innocence we all once had..
Never talk about love again. 9:58 PM.
You cannot write rubbish here. You must not write rubbish here. You shall not write rubbish here.
And...
I WILL NOT WRITE RUBBISH HERE.
Ook my mind has officially gone haywire.
Never talk about love again. 11:28 PM.
