4 leaf clover2

2011-07-19T23:53:00.003+08:00

I finally found a new job! Can't wait to tender tomorrow and finish serving my notice period! But I do hope I don't get too much of a culture shock when I go into the new company. I heard it's really v "Myself" kinda department. Oh wells, beats staying at cgw right? Too stagnant man..

Oops! Someone is peeping at me blogging! Will update more next time!

2011-07-15T22:36:00.002+08:00

Today was supposed to be the long awaited outcome day. But it didn't come as i expected. I thought maybe a straight rejection might be better than some vague answers trying to brush me off to give up. Like those pestering custs, I can't seem to give it up totally knowing that there is a loophole for me to still squeeze something out.

Oh nevermind... life still goes on, well maybe just not as colourful, but still not totally black out yet. Sanity is not mine. At least, not for now.

Back to work at cgw is nothing interesting other than the sprees that i fully allow myself to indulge in. Given the situation in my bank account now, this is all bullshit. -_-''

Alright alrights, enough of these whats not. Get back to being preoccupied with my shows.

2011-05-26T02:58:00.003+08:00

It has been post exams for 2 weeks now. All I've done is sleep eat watch drama eat sleep. Good life huh?

Thus far, I've conquered a Korean drama "49 days", 3 seasons of True Blood, some episodes of 蜡笔小新, finish up on Vampire diaries season 2 where I left off previously, and today I started on another new Korean drama "对我说谎试试" till epi 4.

But reality will be kicking in pretty soon as I'm gonna go back to wk at CGW in the coming week.  and I'm sooooooo bloody broke now that I wanna cry. 

Tonight seems to be a weird night. All the ingredients I need to sleep well are all here but I can't sleep at all! WHYYYY?!?!?!

Off the tracks, I think I'm a snack addict, like for real. I spent my day at boyfriend's while waiting for him to off work. Woke up at 1, cooked Maggie, and started watching my drama. Then at ard 3, I started craving for snacks and to my utmost horror, baby's house don't have a single snack! So I was telling myself "忍! Wait till yingdong off wk ask him buy for me!". And the next hour felt like days! And I started perspiring in cold sweat and my hands started to shiver! NO KIDDING!!! The next thing I knew was I was holding money and running downstairs to buy potato chips!! OMGZZ.... More of it, this isn't the first time that this has happened. And I don't know why. Only reason I can think of, is I'm a snack addict. 

Scary much!

2011-05-03T18:26:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is the start of judgement day. Finally it's here. I hope all our hardwork will not go in vain. Keeping my fingers crossed!

Here I sincerely pray with my fearful heart...

2011-04-30T12:17:00.000+08:00

The next time you see a snow globe,
I hope you think, I hope you remember me,
because I’m a snow globe, glass enclosed,
but I’m not as cold and solid as I appear to be.
Remember how fragile and breakable I am.
I pray you remember to hold me carefully
and to look pass my glassy surface,
find the secrets I keep hidden, in place.
Because I am a snow globe and I keep
inside me, magical white specks, tiny and small,
that dance and twirl at the slightest movement,
that darling when you shake, simply begins to fall.

2011-04-26T16:04:00.002+08:00

Just spent my precious 20minutes to watch the video 'Strangers, again' which was reposted on fb by like dozens of friends and strongly recommended by Kiki.

Hmm... It's actually very true and applies to all relationships.

Stage One: Meeting
Stage Two: The Chase
Stage Three: Honeymoon
Stage Four: Comfortable
Stage Five: Tolerance
Stage Six: Downhill

So the question is Marriage or Breakup? A question that got all of us stumped. I liked the sentence 'Its where not bad, but not great.'

So, which stage do u think we are at?

2011-04-21T20:20:00.002+08:00

今天真是很糟糕的一天...

I did not manage to even complete that half chap of chap 4. N I can't seem to make my brain revolve. Sigghh..

In need of some happy pills. Anyone can spare me some?

2011-04-20T23:54:00.002+08:00

During this mugging period, I can easily name you a handful of songs that are like earworms to me. Such as What the hell by Avril Lavigne, Jar of hearts by Christina Medina, What are words by Chris Medina, Forget you by Cee Lo Green and Price tag by Jessie J, etc.

And today, I'm totally stuck with this song in my head. It's The Golden Age by Asteroids Galaxy Tour. Yes, some of you might recognize that this is the song from the Heineken Advertisement. Hahah! Totally catchy man! The lyrics are as below:

I wish I lived in the Golden Age, giving it up on the Broadway stage.
Hang with the rats and smoke cigars, have a break with Frank and count the stars.
Dressed to the night, we've had to much. Shiny jewels, casino cash.
Tapping feet, wanna take the lead. A trip back in time is all I need!

Sing it out loud, gonna get back honey!
Sing it out loud, get away with me!
Sing it out loud, on a trip back honey!
Sing it out loud and let yourself free!

I'm on my way, gonna make it big, gonna make the songs for the chicks to dig.
It's really hot and a little bit sour, we're getting your strength to maximum power.
Flying away from reality, whatever ever happened to gravity?
I see it clear, a shooting star! I'm a really good singer la-di-da-da-da!
[- From :http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/asteroids-galaxy-tour-lyrics/the-golden-age-lyrics.html -]

Sing it out loud, gonna get back honey!
Sing it out loud, get away with me!
Sing it out loud, on a trip back honey!
Sing it out loud and let yourself free! 2x

Ooooh, Silver screen on a rainy day, sally balls in a cabaret.
Shaking sticks, oh what a show, rushing joy from tip to toe.
Rambling down the boulevard, with a fire burning in a wooden heart.
My mind is set, I walked the line!
But I never really thought it would feel this fine! Yeah!

Sing it out loud, gonna get back honey!
Sing it out loud, get away with me!
Sing it out loud, on a trip back honey!
Sing it out loud and let yourself free! 2x

2011-04-19T13:36:00.002+08:00

Am feeling the heated stress from exams. Maybe because I'm putting more efforts this year and I'm really hoping that I can get over year 2. PLEASE....

So, I was thinking that taking a break from my dividend policy and have a
look at the banner of this blog to make myself feel better. The funny thing is, despite the umpteen views since I had created this banner, I still feel something whenever I look at it. At this time, when I'm all dejected, this banner makes me relax a lil.

I hope all is not lost yet.

2011-04-18T06:16:00.002+08:00

I think I am too stressed up that I'm wide awake at this unearthly hour. The thing is, I just had an awful, yes awful max, nightmare. :(

I'm so scared that I had to on the lights and lie back in bed. But I can't seem to get back to slp. Totally freaked out!

I dreamt that I was sharing a room with my colleagues Nika and Angela. Then Angela was telling me some creepy stories like you can't say '我吃饱了' due to some inauspicious issues. Then we 'fell aslp' in my dreams where Angela suddenly appeared beside me and started shaking/vibrating very badly before she attacked me! And no matter how I tried to scream, no sound comes out! Then I tried all my best to wake Nika up and when she finally did, Angela stopped shaking! T_T I was then freaked awake.

Now the main problem is getting back into lala w/o going back to that f scary scene or see those faces again!

2011-04-16T23:21:00.003+08:00

Today is really very 有雅兴 day. We were planning to watch a movie.. But we ended up at Suntec! Yes, got my Royce cravings totally satisfied! Baby bought me a box of Hazelnut Cream wafers and a box of Royce signature Brandy chocs. ^_^

Then we played arcade there. I think I'm growing old for those shooting games! My heart cannot take it sia! LOL! sibei scary... And the gun is 1.5kg heavy! -_- Zzzz

We then chanced upon a triatholon event. I could type a paragraph of chim words below 1m15secs! Hehe. Won a cap n tee from Singtel.. Then baby played the swim and bike challenge where he had to find 10 specific balls in a pool of balls and pump 2 balloons within a specified time. Hmm ya, both of us seems to be like old ppl walking ard such roadshows recently. That day we went to an event n played e basketball game challenge! Haha.

And next came the impromptu Facial session at Posh Wellness :D super shiok! $90 for a Oil free facial which includes trimming eye brow and a shoulder oil massage.. Totally worth it. But I din do e shoulder massage cause I refuse to remove my clothes. LOL!!!

And our very interesting day did nt end just like that. We came Hm and started to learn the song What are words by Chris Medina on the piano. Hahah. Super got mood lo. But I like! :))))

Sunshine after the rain. Crossing this obstacle, I think we will walk till the end of the road. <3

2011-04-13T22:24:00.003+08:00

It's important to feel important.

On the sideline, the serenity of this place calms my thoughts down and clears up some space for me to breathe. Though I'm still very upset that my secret place is gone, and maybe for good.... So upset that I can cry.

Airplane mode is good.

2011-04-13T01:33:00.003+08:00

Once a scotch tape loses it's stickiness, it loses it's value as well. This applies to a partner as well.

*Vanishing into the night*

2011-04-12T01:58:00.001+08:00

You forgot the magic word again. :( they are very very impt to me!

2011-03-31T00:13:00.005+08:00

I don't know why but things doesn't seem to be going the right way. It's like the pms period is well over but things doesn't seem to be back to normal. Even w e trip to genting w 10 others, I don't seem to be truly happy? I mean I'm happy, but not feeling awesomely happy. And I'm pretty sure things between us is going quite badly.. The differences in our opinions are getting stronger and stronger w every decision we make or thoughts we have.

It's like.. Hmm rejection of my pleads crushes my confidence and morale too. Yes, girls too have their own ego, just not as strong as guys. The total crash of ego came when a coin flip won u over.

Even as of here, a blog where I'm ranting, I'm picking my words so carefully, cause of fears that u might find me unreasonably offensive, that it doesn't really express my actual thoughts well too.

When I told someone 'if I ask him to go/come, he sure go Siao ah! at me' and the person laughed. Well, I was hoping to hear a different answer, thinking that maybe, just maybe a lil hope, that you might be sweeter and willing to give me more than I thought. Yes, Sweetness is the key point.

I somehow can imagine you telling me that 'haven't I put in enough efforts? Why don't u see it?'

I will be stumped for words. Because I'm me. A girl. Please love this side of me as well. The selfish me.

Sometimes I wish that u will be able to put down your ego for me. that would really be great.

Don't be too quick to answer me saying that you have already done so. The best way to know the answer is to think back of your reaction or the first thought that came to your mind when u read the previous paragraphs above. Yes, that's exactly what I mean.

It isn't about not knowing what I want. It's about not wanting to give me enough of what I want. Yes, another key point. What is enough? That is by my limit. Not accordance to yours.

I am losing the feel that you treat me differently from your ex. Still remember the difference that you told me two and a half years ago? That's what I'm looking for.

Reminder To Self: Don't be too held up in your own world.

2011-03-09T02:25:00.002+08:00

A word is a word. A sentence is a sentence. A word forming a sentence does not make that a promise.

That was desultory, I know. Do pardon me. It just happen to be typed by my fingers, not my mind. And so this is the week of prelims. Just had ISORG today. Had a peek at the questions through Chinyee and it got me stumped. The questions didn't seem to link to the topics. Absolutely absurb. Anyhow, I did try to sketch out my answer and memorize them before going for my own ISORG paper. Er, yeaaa, it happened that her paper is in the evening while my slot is at night and they don't change the questions for the different slots. :)

I do know that it is pointless to score in prelims but my aim was to reassure if the way I had presented the answers is the right method. Hopes it doesn't crush my confidence level too deeply though.

Now I'm soooo sleepy already. Woke up so early to meet them ear breakfast. It's a first, I'm proud to say. LOL. time to catch a wink now!

2011-03-04T01:21:00.002+08:00

It's e start of the crazy period again! I hate it, seriously. It's super draining to both body and mind. PLUS I'M STILL NOT SURE IF I CAN PASS THIS TIME. I think I'm gonna quit school if I flunk again this year. :(

Anyhow, it's super random but well, at this kinda time, nothing that comes out from me is not random. (It's the part of the year where my brain starts to malfunction and I do/say things without much thought. SO BEWARE)

Back to what I was saying, I suddenly WISH for a buddy. Yes, like Kiki, like May. Seems fun to have ppl popping surprises for you every now and then, and be there when you wanna be crazy for once, without boyfriend. It really look fun to have someone who would ask me out and have an impromptu day madness with him. This might just get me out of the mundane cycle im in. Yes, a buddy has, or at least it seems to be a criteria, a opposite sex. And maybe this someone is someone u can complain about things I wouldnt want anyone else to know about, including boyfriend. Haha!

All in all, it's just a food for thought. Not wish and *blink* and *taaadaaa* 'Hi, buddy!'. You know what I mean. And I still love all my jiemei, sisters and girlfriends around me! I believe they would still be there when I need them. So is my beloved darling. :)

I just need some sparks in my life to ignite the dead old heart.

2011-02-24T18:02:00.003+08:00

It's like last night is not bad enough.... Now I feel like total shit. =...[ I don't want to affect him but........

Studying alone at Mac doesn't make me less miserable either. The msges and the call didn't help also, on contrary, it made it worse.

Well, good thing is I'm at Mac. Not at Hm.. And I could still withdraw back those droplets from falling...

Hais.. 

Today is THURSDAY. I seriously hope I can knock my head onto something and coma till sunday. Fuck....

2011-02-24T03:47:00.005+08:00

Just came from my Wednesday madness with Kiki. We were supposed to just meet for dinner and shop. Who knows we ended up at Zouk aft shopping. LOL. Luckily entry was free.. I can foresee a large deficit in my acc v soon. 

It's nice to club w people who are not touchy and as bitchy as us. Haha! I swear that person is really super 38 ttm! LMAO.. anyhow it's so awkward to have seen Conan there again! And he pointed middle finger at me cause I refuse to acknowledge him. -_- and I feel so old! Haven't had so much drinks for a long time! I can totally feel my bones shattering. Clubbing seems to be the only way to make me 'exercise'. LOL

My phone is really dying on me. It was 90% when i left house. Then it dropped to 60% when I waited for Kiki for an hr. Then it dropped to 20% after our dinner! Omg. I didn't even play any games or watch any vid!!!! -_- like yi ge WTF lo.

But one thing I hate about clubbing is that it makes me 特别 miss him. :( and this time I cannot whine and look him up as I want to. :((((((((((((((((((((( emo max!

Will you be back soon?? 

2011-02-23T01:46:00.002+08:00

Can you believe it??!!

When baby went china, we coincidentally cut hair at the same time! Like really 不约而同! And he just told me that he went to watch a movie today too! YES, IT'S ALSO THE MECHANICS!!! omg! Amazingly fated can... What are the chances that 2 person in 2 different countries DO THE SAME THING on 2 separate occasions??!

Anyhow, it doesn't seem to make me any less emo whatsapping him. I NEED HIM BY MY SIDE! :((((((

2011-02-23T01:23:00.003+08:00

I'm into day 2 of his trip. Feels like 2years have past. His journey to his friend's place took like nearly 12hours! Omg. 裂掉!

Was listening to the musical box n I was like yi ge emo. Ok, more than yi ge. Maybe yi bai ge emo can.. :(

Went dhoby to mug w yee yee. End up study half of chap 2 and I gave up cause I don't understand the second part. So I decided not to study that part.. Fingers crossed that it doesn't come out for exam! LOL

Den we went to fish while waiting for Kiki to reach. :) it's officially my fav past time.

We caught The Mechanics together and it's not too bad.. Dinner was far too filling! I'm still full now!!

Whooppss! Baby is finally whatsapping me now! Bye now!

2011-02-22T00:29:00.002+08:00

It's been nearly 2 months since I last blogged. Thought I should blog more in case I would want to recall what I've done before. Apparently Baby and I couldn't recall what we did fr vday last year and there's no photo or blog entries about it! LOL. So I need this blog for my memory lane.

And so, bf was away for 12 LOOONNGGGG days to China from early January. I remembered how mind fucking the wait was.. Couldn't concentrate on whatever I was doing at all, even when I was out with friends. I could totally recall there was a point of time when I just sat there and stoned at TopOne when gh Kiki n bj was there as well.

And now, he's gonna be away to M'sia for a week AGAIN! ok, I shouldn't be taking this to heart this badly since it's good for us not to be too sticky to each other, like he said. I should take this time to really study. I NEED TO. Prelims are 10days away and I've only covered one chap of POA.

Hmms.. This year's vday was good. We went to fang tian deng w zhu, niko, jade, nx and dong on vday eve! And we nua-Ed till 4plus bef we went Hm, even though it's a Monday the next day! Felt so much like back to teenage times when everyone zou Bo and hang ard till wee hours. LOL. And I cooked lunch for baby on vday! :D though it's not v delicious, but still edible la! Hees. My very first time cooking leh! :) and he got me a musical 'box' which I had longed for one all these years! It's damn difficult to find such items in sg. I seriously nearly teared when I heard the music coming from the 'box' for the first time. Thank you baby!

Vday dinner was at Hilton hotel's Checkered restaurant. Had our virgin taste of goose liver. Nom nommmmm.. The dinner was sooo romantic w all the rose petals in the shape of a heart laid on our table. I love it! We also caught No Strings Attached after dinner. Good movie! <3

I shall end this post here because I can see that it's rather lengthy. :/ I can also see myself blogging more the next few days! :X

2011-01-01T04:56:00.002+08:00

I regret asking them along. Bad idea, lousy idea, dumbass idea..

I just came to realize that it's not that I got over with that episode, but more of I chose to throw it out of my mind like it didn't happen before. But when I start to think over it, I can't help but feel helpless w no one to tell about the kind of anger I was experiencing and all the possibilities going through my mind that I could be one of e girls who had their trusts misplaced.

What would u do if I wasn't around that very day?

2010-12-19T21:58:00.004+08:00

It is only today that I realize how much I hate to grow up.. I'd trade everything I have just so to have time stop at this point or would be even better to turn back 10 years. :(

I hate to work. I hate to study. I hate to learn what is love as it makes me vulnerable. I hate to be loved because it makes me extremely afraid of being alone. I hate burdens. I hate having to think and decide what I really want in life. I hate to be too skeptical about human behavior and the ability to see through and judge a person's character, which always expose me to the ugly side of human.

It doesn't mean that I don't love him or he doesn't love me. I love him and i ain't regretting that I chose him. I just wish that I could live in my own world of fantasy where everything is soooo pretty. No money to work for, no people with ugly thoughts, no worries, no burden, no plans to make.. Just living life the way as I wished.

I wish I could leave everything here and start a different life from what I'm in now. But I ain't no ostrich. I'm just trying my best to hold on to the innocence we all once had..

2010-12-15T23:28:00.003+08:00

You cannot write rubbish here. You must not write rubbish here. You shall not write rubbish here.

And...

I WILL NOT WRITE RUBBISH HERE.

Ook my mind has officially gone haywire.

2010-11-29T23:01:00.003+08:00

Iphillia, you need to stop working so hard. Cause the more you work, the more it makes you spend. It doesn't make sense.

And so, I have declared this week as a national public holiday in the kingdom of Iphyland. Shall let the mind soul and body rest and energize. No shuffling between school and work.. And no more ADDITIONAL work. Saying NO to overtime and selphy event never felt this good before. :)

On a side note, nanxin seriously 没良心. He got the cheeks to ask me work on my bdae.  although I'm not gonna celeb it this year (in fact I'm celebrating ll's 21st), I'd at least wanna rest on this day. I don't wanna be cursed for a pai Mia life next year. Haha.

Oh and I'm going to enjoy a nice mani and pedi session with miche this wed aft work. Gonna pamper my hands and feet! Not forgetting my hair as well! Gonna do my hair on thurs aft work as a form of bdae gift to myself.  actually it's because bdae month got 40% off. wahaha so must fully utilize the $10 membership fee i paid initially.

Ok I was supposed to sleep by 10. And apparently I nua till now then I'm ready for bed. Good night world! 

And here comes and best part... I'm on off on Friday.... Shiok!!!!!!!! 

2010-11-28T23:58:00.004+08:00

He reassured me there's nothing. And yes, I believe him. But it's the 那一口气 that I couldn't take. The point that some random person who thought that she is more superior than me to him took me feel totally out of my comfort zone. I think my tolerance level has grown sooooo high that I'm beginning to feel like a stranger to myself. I'm such a good tempered person now. Haha.

And exactly again, I am still bothered. And the fact that the incident which took place more then 24hrs ago is still bothering me, BOTHERS me. TSK

2010-11-26T23:27:00.003+08:00

Occasionally when you are living too comfortably with someone, you tend to be more in your own world and forgot all about the thing which is commonly known as 'Romance'. This lil ingredient may seems to be small and not very visible, but could jolly well make the entire dish be so much more flavorful, just like pepper.

To some, these might sound redundant should they prefer something light. Think about a plain white teochew porridge. Well, for now you might find it nice as it is healthy..But imagine eating only the bland porridge for 1day, 2days,1 month, 1year, 10years, etc.. I doubt you would ever feel about food tge way you used to anymore.. That's when all the cravings, the urge, the passion and the adrenaline is all extinguished.

'You grow old when u stop playing'. I so agree with this. 

2010-11-19T21:32:00.002+08:00

Why is it that I'm always feeling so confused and unsure recently? Where is everything heading? It's like being in a tunnel with no light glowing to tell you where the end is..

2010-11-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

A relationship is like a flower. Regardless of it's type, It has to be watered everyday and nourishment has to be given in order for it to grow stronger and beautiful. However, different species of flowers require different special care and attention in some aspects. If such details are not taken care of properly, chances are, the flower will not wither, but neither will it bloom..

2010-11-15T01:29:00.002+08:00

You are my only consolation.. For whatever I told you through our telepathic minds, I could trust that onone else will ever know and there will never be any opposition feedbacks bouncing back to me. All I needed was a listening mind and an identical idealogy.

2010-10-18T02:01:00.004+08:00

Sometimes u really makes me feel like I'm expecting too much from him... Am I? It's so....... Trivial. And I dun see what is so hard....

I've always been telling myself it will last it will last as long as I dun give up so easily.. But some v lil things could well accumulate to make things much worse than it was. It's v impt to be able to differentiate between throwing tantrum and being pissed..

Watched a show and it said that it's pathetic for a girl to be trying to gain the attention of the other party as there shouldn't be a need.. And it's really disappointing that my whines don't seem to be able to work either and this is indeed v disappointing for me.. So much so that it hurts..

Girls need to be coaxed.. ALWAYS. Not the other way round. If it's too late.. Den dun bother.

You might say that u r like that.. Ur character makes u so.. But isn't it sometimes worth it for u to maybe just try to change it abit? Just for my sake please? It's e same as certain things I hate, but I'd still do it, knowing that it'd make u happier..

Isn't this what a relationship is bout?

2010-10-14T00:07:00.002+08:00

My cheeks are burning hot and damp. I didn't expect a lack of attention will lead to such impact.. Maybe the plan should be aborted.. Fucking regret to have this plan in the first place.

Someone said I was being too demanding. Someone else said I shouldn't go overboard. Someone also told me I was wrong. I was then told not to think about my own feelings only..

Guess they were right. I'm mindless.. My brain is just like a one way railway track.

2010-09-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

People come people go. It's a vicious cycle just like how the moon is full now and it becomes a crescent the next, and the cycle continues.. So how do we .……… I have this... awkward? feeling.. How does this affects you, me, everyone? I don't know anymore. Guide me, will you?

I feel stuck.

2010-08-16T23:49:00.003+08:00

I've always think that whenever i need a space to rant on, this would be the perfect place, other than twitter. Too many eyes on this page. But too bad tweets has got their own limitation which is hardly ever a rant. More of a remark, a nasty one at most. While I've tried a diary, it's too energy-consuming that I gave up after a few entries.

There's a reason why I was saying that I'm under D... A handful of symptoms I'd say. Tears are like raindrops from the sky, ever changing, even if it's sunshine. It could well be thunderstorm in a matter of moments. Just like it is now..

Binge, wasn't so serious till now.

The list goes on..

I want to tell you something so much but I just don't know how.

Tonight cannot be a sleepless night. NO IT CAN'T.

2010-07-14T10:49:00.003+08:00

Hi hi hi! I haven't been visiting this space for awhile now. But i guess nothing much has changed? Lol. Old me just plainly focusing on working and resting. Haha! Ok, i know that the amount of time i spent on resting is longer than the time i spent working but but, i do work alot more these days hor! :D and i definitely do hope that i can get either one of those full-time jobs i applied! But so far still no news eh.. :(

There seems to be a thousand and one thing that i would wanna do/have right now, which i can just name you off my mind instantly. Like a new phone. My n95 is officially dead under the hands of yingdong while my e61 is almost joining him. It kinda rang till it dropped onto the floor causing the screen to black out with lines across it. After some attempt to revive it through what i call it a MOBILE CPR, it finally stayed on with me. Guess it doesn't bear to leave me at this time too. Hahahaha!

Anyways.. I'm sooo damn sad that i got ps-ed twice this week. Which also explains why i'm always at home these days. TSK. Its ok la.. I know everyone's busy with everything. We can always meet next week right.. :)

So i hope today will be a good day! Spending the afternoon in town with love should be good.. :) :)

2010-06-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

Ok I deleted my previous post because I think I somehow made someone mistaken about my intentions.

First of all, if u r angry about it, I'm sorry. It's never to criticise any of u. It's just that somehow it seems to be a season of breakups and I just hope all my single frens to move on happily. Of course I know it's easier said than done. But only when u r willing to let go will you be happy. I just want to see you guys to stop brooding over it. :(

I think I suck at providing comforting words man. Haisss.. I can't seem to bring them out if the gloomy weather. Life should carry on. Think about living on for those people who care and love you. Please don't hurt them or even yourself.

Release yourself.

2010-06-09T02:20:00.002+08:00

Its such a wonderful day!

Slacked around at home with baby after his lesson till evening before heading for selphy training BY TRAIN. I can't even rmb the last time we took public transport tgt for a date! Aww.. It feels good!

Training was pretty relaxing because i didn't have to be there in the first place! All edwin taught was alr engraved into my brain long ago. So we were pretty much scam-ed by nanxin to attend. -_-

Anyhow, it was good la.. The stigma feeling that i thought i would have didn't happen which definitely is something to be happy about. Eh, most prob cause the crucial person wasn't there. Yupp. I hope i don't work with her. *10 fingers crossed*

Then after dinner we headed for the movies! KILLERS! :) Ashton Krutcher looks jaw-dropping hot seriously. Omg.. :X (yes, super humji. I didn't dare watch the nightmare show. hehes.)

We rushed for the last train to commonwealth to get back his bike before heading hm. The weather is super good tonight! Love it. In fact, i love everything about today. :)

Awesome day with my awesome someone.

2010-06-07T19:45:00.000+08:00

你 ah 你 ah 你 ah....

2010-06-03T16:01:00.003+08:00

I was just stoning while looking at him dozing off on my big big bed when i begin to recognize the beauty of time. I remember how i was being envious of lilian when she and nic had their 2nd anniversary. And now, with really just a blink of an eye, baby and i had past our 20th monthsary unknowingly. And very soon it will be our 2nd anniversary too. Hard to picture that eh?

I didn't know we could come this far and surprisingly i'm not bored of him just as yet. haha! But if this fella continues to sleep like a log like what he's doing now, i might just decide to kick him aside. LOL. opps..

And so, i'm loving my current post exams life. But enjoyment is just not really ttm yet because of super tight financial constraint! I haven't been working since i quitted Jeregon in mid feb. I mean other than some VERY RARE part time here and there for canon. But well, given my rather atas life, my expenditure way exceed my income. Luckily there's something call boyfriend. haha! Which makes logical sense that he calls me the Ah Sia Kia. LOL.

But now when the well is dry, its time to learn to stay cooped at home till my lil pay arrives from canon. =( I'm trying my best to make myself love my room...

I WANNA GO OUT PLAY PLAY PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

I ought to be resting. I'm having a splitting headache but my whole mind is all on the maggie mee that we were happily eating the other day. The soupy mee with crab sticks, hotdogs and egg.. Yum yum..

I think i'm hungry.

Ps: I hate the sun.

2010-05-25T14:26:00.003+08:00

Well, i do know its too early to be a nemo now.. But believe me, i'm not. :)

It has always felt like a racing game with either me or you chasing after each other. If you are ahead of me, i would be chasing behind you trying to catch up with you or at least try to drag you and make you slow down. Or it could be the other way round with me infront and you putting in all your effort in trying to be of same pace with me. Oh well, its just a thought. :)

Have been having weird dreams lately.. Its like.. On events that's happening based on my subconscious thoughts. Things that i've been feeling but been trying to tell myself to curb the thoughts. Pretty scary actually..

Its starts with a f***t and ends with a b***k. Very saddening indeed, but on the contrary, it actually felt comforting. Like suddenly i got released of all the ropes that was tying me down. Its just a dream you say. And i know that. Plus its a forbidden dream at that.

2010-05-22T05:28:00.000+08:00

I'm a bad girl.. I couldn't resist the temptation so i...

Ate the chilli crab noodles despite my nose bleed! :X

Heex.. Hungry la.. And my health seems to be going haywire these days eh? I have my left nostril flowing with blood and my right nostril flowing with mucus. Yupp, go imagine how it feels. Hmm..

And then, i'm always experiencing black outs due to low sugar or low blood pressure, whatever you call it, esp when i club. And its always coming faster and faster each time. Like the time i realise i'm seeing black spots and the reaction time i'm given to find somewhere to sit and get some sweet stuffs is shorter and shorter. :( Irritating!

Hai.. Today is really a super sucky day. Entire day is only filled with quarrels with everyone including my parents. Wtf. Only had tears on my cheeks, no smiles. Tsk. :( :( :( :(

2010-05-21T23:52:00.003+08:00

Tell me why tell me why tell me why..........

I believe none of us want it this way.. But why does it always always always turn out like that??

I'm envious of how someone can tell me "throughout the entire 2 years we were tgt, we've only quarrelled once. And whenever i think of him i can'r seem to think of any other memories other than happy memories.. sad memories doesn't exist in our r/s."

How i wish.

Thanks for making my make up smudge.

2010-05-20T01:03:00.004+08:00

I have to wake up at 7am later yet i'm still wide awake. Most likely due to the 3hrs of ritual chanting, with all the gongs, mu yu and drums, becoming an earworm which seems to be on repeat mode in my head. :(

Lucky for me, my sis is staying over.. I've always been rather timid whenever it comes to such ritual or inauspicious thingy. I did manage to scam my mum over to slp in my room last night, fyi. I'll get super paranoid and i won't be able to slp after i witness things that i deem as scary. And this symptom seems to be getting worse as i grow older. I'll even try to avoid watching horror movie these days. If some of u guys might recall, i used to love it. I'd psycho ppl to watch it with me too. Boohoohoo...

Anyway.. I really think i'm bulimic, just that i'm not those who would purge out the food by digging or whatsoever. I just constantly overeat and overeat.. Like just by looking at something(by something i meant food), i would wanna eat all of them up. I don't know where i'd get all e appetite in the world, but.. I constantly feel hungry, like every 2hrs(this could well be an underestimation) i would needa find food. Even when i'm full, i still continue eating like i haven't had my meal yet. Something seems to keep prompting my mind that i'm not that full and i STILL WANNA EAT. And i get really really angry if i'm deprived of food. Like really pissed off kind..

Then, I would get this indigestion or even nauseous feel after i binge. Occasionally i would really uncontrollably puke out the food the same way it went in, even though normally i would try my best to keep my food in. :(

Am i really bulimic? Or am i just super 贪吃? I hope its the latter..

Argh.. Can i skip tmr's ritual? :( it reminds me of my ah gong's and raymond's. :( :( :( :( :( super super super hate it.. Hate the choking feeling in my throat whenever i send them off..

2010-05-18T17:44:00.000+08:00

Why am i always the one circling around this feeling?

Argh..

2010-05-18T01:07:00.006+08:00

What's with this seriously?

Me: hi, what's your name?
Girl no.1: Charmaine
Me: oh ok, i'm iphillia here.
Girl no.1: Oh.. You are ym's gf right...
Me: Yeah.....

Me: Hello. You are cheryl?
Girl no.2: Ya.. You are?
Me: Iphillia.
Girl no.2: Oh. You are ym's gf right?
Me: How you know?
Girl no.2: Someone mention to me before to watch out of yooou....hmm..
Me: Huh?
Girl no.2: *smiles* nothing!

Me: Hi, I'm iphillia here. What's your name?
Girl no.3: Yeah i know. You are ym's gf right? Someone told me about you before.. You worked at Today's parents event right?
Me: ....

Its like wtf is wrong here? This happened at 3diff events which are weeks apart. Hello? I'm in the company as an individual by myself, not as HIS GF. This is super annoying cause its not like i fucking know you through him or what.. MY NAME IS IPHILLIA KWEK, NOT SOME-GUY-THAT-MAYBE-YOU-TOOK-A-FANCY-ON-DE-GIRLFRIEND. Now i don't even know should i be happy or what that girl no.3 says 'your boyfriend is so cute.'

Thank you very much for your special attention towards me. But just stop being a bitch and help in marketing me. I will, if i want, make new acquaintances/colleagues/friends by myself using my own way. I don't need you to pre-advertise for me. Just keep you fucking comments to yourself and don't act like you know me well. Lance Wan Yingming is MY BOYFRIEND. Get it right, young lad.

The more you care, the more vulnerable you are.
- i like this. Maybe that's why heartless is good.

Ok.. Time to head to lala before i really get too hungry to slp.. :( No mac delivery iphillia kwek. Time to lose some meat.

2010-05-17T07:07:00.002+08:00

Just when i thought the weekend would be good to let me recover from my sleep-deprived exams schedule, i actually slept lesser.

Since my third paper and my last paper has a 2weeks gap, i thought it was a good idea to let me destress. But i didn't expect myself to play so much that i'm even more slp deprived. Lol.

Caught 'The last song' by Miley Cyrus who sang one of my favourite song, The Climb. Its soooo nice! Omg. Haven't caught such a touching movie for a long time. Good getaway from all those heroic shows like Ironman, Ipman, kickass or robin hood. Cried like mad in the theatres i swear..

Then it was followed by mj on the very day i finished my 3rd paper.

Then then then it was partying at phuture on sat. Crazy night ah.. Went with all the nutsy. Haha!

And right now, i just came back from a poker game! I was losing about 40bucks in the beginning but luckily i not only recovered my losses but also won 30bucks in the end!! Heex.. Happy!

Oh ya.. Baby if u reading this, we can have lunch after ur lesson later. Told mum not to cook my share in order not to wake up for lunch! :X call me!

Btw.. I was thinking i needa revert back to studying mode from today on.. But.. :( my aljunied god ah ma just passed away.. :( needa attend her funeral later.. So yupp..

2010-05-14T17:56:00.003+08:00

hmmmm.. *Putting on my thinking cap*
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Should i butter tonight?
LOL.

Super tempted!!!!!! But but... tmr got work and we are already planning to go phuture tmr too! haha. They are mad people. Alrights.. Post exams party for them. But me?? I'm not done with my final paper yet. hahaha. Who cares? I probably flunk micro alr so no point studying for EOE anyways right? Maybe i should just quit sch..

But i'm happy that i'm working with HIM tmr!! heesssss.. Y

2010-05-13T02:39:00.005+08:00

Tonight feels like its such a miraculous misty night. Walking out of homeground and felt like i walked into a dream, with two rows of trees standing neatly by the roadside and beams from the streetlights shining through the mist like the scenes in Twilight. Not until i took my gaze down and saw a mouse scrambling pass the pavement. -_-

Well, i'd still say its such a beautiful night. As some of you may have noticed, Kovan is a place filled with trees of many different species. And very quickly i was pulled back into the fantasy, really enjoying my walk home, admiring the trees near the roundabout through the mist (yes, they are very those very dream-like trees with droopy leaves). But the very moment i saw the "event" at my void deck, i was drawn back to reality. Cruel yet very real. Immediately i found myself all alone, a lil shaky from the fear. But then again, i forgot about the time. Its already almost dawn. Nobody would be walking around void decks at such unearthly hours. If so, instead of feeling comfort, i should be wary.

If only we live in a world of fairytale. I'd love that.

Right now, all i can feel is the weariness of both my mind and body. Finding shelter in lalaland is really a great idea before i start feeling all emotional thinking about having to travel to battleground without any company later. =( Not without a fight will i give up, i certainly hope so.

Good morning, good night.

2010-05-12T06:18:00.001+08:00

I realise even after so long, i still love the photo to bits. Somehow it always seem to never fail to warm my heart and give me goosebumps whenever i stare at it. Don't ask me which photo cause' 本小姐 won't tell you! bleahs.. LOL.

Random but ya.. Only a pathetic 4hrs of slp for 2days made me a lil cranky i believe. Haha. Alrights.. Time to fall to the land of fantasies for i'm almost just a bag of meat without a soul. So.. Don't ever try to wake me up even if the sky is falling down, down down down~ lol.

2010-05-10T23:00:00.001+08:00

恼羞成怒 :(

2010-05-10T02:27:00.002+08:00

Time check : 2.30am
Chaps left for micro : 4.5

I'm a goner. Even if i can skip one of it, i'm still pretty much dead. I haven't attempt a single tutorial qns. And everyone seems to tell me i can't skip the 3.5chaps. :(

Pbf is on tue so tmr is fully on pbf, nth else. And micro is on thurs MORNING. So wed is supposed to be dedicated to memorizing my 1inch thick notes that I WROTE. :( so i'm left with now till about 4plus when we would all be damn shag alr.. And tue night to cover those 3.5chaps. HOW TO?!

ONE FREAKING CHAP IS 70 ODD PAGES! WTH. WHO IN THE WORLD WRITES SUCH LONG NOTES FOR STUDENTS?! -_- THANK YOU VERY MUCH MARK HARRIS. I LOVE YOU DAMN LOTS.

2010-05-09T06:05:00.003+08:00

How long will this sweetness last?

Who will have the last say in this unique bond?

Will that perfect image stays on even if the bond is broken?

I hate it when it suddenly feels so cold, spacious and quiet when i sleep.

Ok. I'm slpy alr.. Time to wash up and head to lala.. Mum! Cut me some slack and don't wake me up can! Impossible i know.. :(

2010-05-08T14:33:00.000+08:00

The weather is ridiculously 'cold' these days.. I always feel like its sucking up all my energy whenever i'm expose to non-aircon temperature.

I had to on my aircon and my fan to the max simultaneously in order to cool my room at night. And the best part was even after coming out from a bath, i would still feel that my bed is emitting heat. Gosh. No kidding.

And when i had a ride from punggol hm, i feel like i nearly died, literally. I can still feel the pain on my legs because of the 'burnt'.. :(

Can i escape to iceland now?

2010-05-07T02:09:00.002+08:00

I'm so in love with today! I mean yesterday, thurs! :) Haven't been so happy for sooo long since i started mugging man.

Caught The backup plan by jennifer lopez at cine(again). Haha. I just caught Ip man 2 yesterday at cine too! Of course the back up plan is of no fight to ip man la.. But its still not too bad! Rather funny esp the after credit scenes.. :) ip man was not only awesome 中的 awesome lo.. It also made me feel proud that i'm a chinese. Heh heh. Even iron man also no fight man..

And so, after a trip to office after the movie, we went to mum mum at 328 katong laksa! Baby's kinda place! Heex.. But its good cause at least that place is air-coned if not i think i.ll die. The weather's fucking hot these days that its driving me nuts! Argh..

Then, Desert was at ice cream chef! My kinda place! Heh heh. Oh ya.. If u guys get a chance, try their creme brulee flavour! Its listed as my fav now.. :D i'm totally in love with that flavour.. Its so seldom that i can manage to finish the entire scoop by myself! This is enough to show how nice it is. :)

And this is not the end of our date night... We continued to chill out at Grapevine. Guess what.. We ordered 1dozen cans of mini Ashahi BEER. My first time drinking so much beer seriously.. But its the nicest beer i've ever tried! Its a dry beer on the sweet side.. And its sooo mini that it looks sooo cute! But we didn't manage to finish all though. Its nonsensical that the boss say we can't bring back the leftovers! Idiotic..

Anyway.. Thank you baby for the Hugo Femme fragrance! ('v') Didn't expect you to think of that! Sweet! :) too bad our Toto nv win.. Tsk!

2010-05-04T01:05:00.002+08:00

Thanks to both of you for 'making' my day. Yes, making it f up just when i was about to think its a not too bad day with maybe just a lil disappointment.

So instead of cheering me on for my upcoming battle, all you did was adding to my already heavy shoulders those stress that are totally uncalled for. What makes you think that i should be the one handling those pressure when the other two fuckers don't even give a damn about? Just because at least i care? Sorry.. Don't use my concern the bloody wrong way. Just get off my back for now can..

I'm tired....

2010-05-03T07:41:00.002+08:00

I've always pondered over why would someone get so attached to the other. Sometimes i just think i'm too heartless to be able to feel that way. I can easily remove this person from my heart just by a snap of feelings. Or maybe like someone just told me today that i've created a protective layer so well that i'll never meet someone who can pass through it and make me feel that way. Just maybe.

Today i met someone who actually popped 40pills when she found out her 5years bf went to bed with 6 diff gals before. I was asking myself what would i do if i'm her. My first instinct was i would rather kill that guy and spend the rest of my life in jail. Haha! But then again, on second thought, i think i won't even meet such a guy because given my past experience, i have a higher probability of cheating on my the other half than them cheating on me. Wahaha! Well, not that i'm flirt or what but its because i won't find myself falling in love with flirtatious guys. I'd be disgusted by them in the first place you see.

On top of that, another reason is they won't even dare because they jolly well know that i would castrate them and slaughter them ALIVE into 18pieces before giving them to the dogs. Lol!

So, probability of me getting really really really hurt in relationship? I won't say its a zero percentage, but it would definitely be a really small one relative to most girls out there. :)
But this is no reason for you to try and do anything harmful to me, LANCE WAN. Love me more! Haha..

But i really really really hope that the someone would really really really be able to walk out of it really really really soon. Stop crying for someone who won't appreciate it anymore. It would only irritate them. Smile for those who care about you! Alrights.. I think the person also don't read this space so yupp.. Typing for the sake of typing.

Ok.. I needa slp NOW. good night love ones! I'm counting down 2days to my hell! I'm still at chap 1 for my cf which is my first paper! :X

2010-05-02T14:46:00.002+08:00

My Mani and Pedi session with kiki tan last mon! =D

Its dirt cheap i tell u. $30 for Classic Mani and get Pedi free!! We added 8bucks for the inter-french mani and 12bucks for the leg spa though. =p STILL VERY CHEAP. The pink was originally too shocking for me but after staring at it for awhile it looks quite pretty actually. =D

But But BUT hor...... I'm super sad now.. Almost half of my nails r ko-yak alr. =(( Thanks to my chor lou-ness. Hope they will have this promo again SOON! hees..

Alrights.. And so, I've officially lost Mr Momemtum now. Machiam I'm like kiki who unofficially ended her exams on fri. (she still have one open book test though) Supposed to have lecture today from 3.30 to 10pm. But i guess im not going.

I've come to realise that all EOE lecturers have weird like really weird accents. For example, both the ah neh and the uk lecturer pronounce PLUS as "PU-LUSH". And TI-TLE (i dunno how to spell) as "TEH-TAH". -_-

2010-05-02T01:14:00.003+08:00

Can someone die from choking on themselves in their sleep? If no, i think i'm gonna be the first in human's history. -_-

I'm serious. I've been lying here for the past 3hrs trying to slp. But whenever i'm almost dozing off, i get this choking feeling because of my cough. Then, i would become awake again after almost coughing my lungs out. This cycle repeated like 4 5 times during the past 3hrs.

Should i just knock my head on the wall and faint instead? Maybe the pain on my head tmr will make mi forget the pain in my throat and chest from all the coughing. Oh.. Maybe the exams too! :X

2010-05-01T22:53:00.004+08:00

Counting down 4 days to hell! I hope i won't do as badly as last year because i put in slightly more effort this year.

Anyways, was checking out the list of unmarked scripts for prelims. (Yes, i know i super lag and that the scripts were supposed to be collected long ago.) And to my surprise, out of 4 papers i took, only one wasn't sent for marking! hahahhaha! So surprising can.. And the one that wasn't sent for marking was corporate finance which i submitted a blank script up. =p (PSSSTT.. Ben sim's script wasn't marked either) hahahah! So i'm not alone.

So... i needa go sch on mon again to collect my scripts! I hope at least micro will show me some marks to boost my confidence level, telling me that my hypothesis of me failing micro is false and i'm commiting a type II error. =))) (Though i know i'll still retain if i fail my precious EOE >.<)

Anyhows... I'm sooooooooo wanting to go on a holiday!!!!!!!!!!!!

But before that.. i guess i would needa find a job first because now ben xiao jie is a pauper. But then again, if i manage to find a job after exams, i doubt i would be able to apply leave the next month if i'm under probation. ='(

If you don't mind, please get the flu bug and the sore in my throat to go away please? Its torturing me at the wrong time of the year! Yeeeeek!

2010-04-29T05:35:00.000+08:00

For a moment, i believed that there'd be a miracle. One that would have you springing a surprise visit on me. Me and my make believes..

That aside, i think even after the mugging for the past nearly 2weeks, i'm not even a tad prepared for exams. Hai.. Even though i don't feel as lonely as last year, but i still can't help but feel helpless in all the modules other den pbf. :( And its worst this year because after TRYING to study, i've realised i'm just like a fucking idiot who can't even understand most of the things i've studied so far. That's 17chaps outta a total of 51chaps in my modules. Pathetic isn't it?

And the stress level is increasing everyday.. Esp looking at how others can even teach ppl how to do those qns(not the same modules as me) just by a click of their fingers when i can't even ans a year 1 econs qns. Wtf like seriously. I feel like crying...

Looking at the fact that there's a huge probability that i'll be retaining in year 2 again makes me totally feel like throwing in the towel already.

2010-04-15T00:43:00.003+08:00

Had one of my most inefficient day today. Met up with amanda and yingfeng at 2pm.. Here goes the entire day's agenda.

2pm-3pm: Settle down and eat my lunch.

3pm-4pm: Catch up a LIL with them.

4pm-5pm: Online FB and TWITTER

5pm-6pm: Begin to study while still CATCHING UP

6pm-7pm: Discuss if we should continue studying or give up.

7pm-8pm: Walk to Superbowl and played pool while waiting for a lane to bowl.

8pm-9pm: Stop pooling and start bowling

9pm-10pm: Dinner and home sweet home.

And hence, all i managed to cover was only 2 pathetic pages of my EOE notes! =((((((

Super emo la.... We couldn't concentrate at all today!

Anyways, so if u were wondering why i didn't continue when i got home...

10pm-11pm: Watch the last episode of channel U's hk drama

11pm-12pm: Watch my Taiwan Hurricane (AWESOME!)

12pm-Now: Slacking here while waiting for someone to lose his $50 winnings back to those people before deciding if we are meeting. LOL (ok, i'm so gonna get killed for cursing him)

GG. Reality check no.2:

Exams - 20 days away.

Chapters covered - 9.1/51

WOOT! Game over. Not even a fifth is covered. >.<

Anyways, i wasn't in the best of moods today. =( Had some fun time, but had some really boring time as wellllllllllllllllll... -_-'' Sammy went butter!! Could've met up with him if i had went.. But well, sometimes things don't always go the way we want isn't it. Its ok! I'm sadder that i missed the chance of watching Clash of the Titans FOR FREE!! =(

*Draw circles on the wall*

2010-04-11T17:19:00.005+08:00

And so, i think my Mr Motivation appeared and she's none other than kiki tan wanki! Heading to suntec later ba. Does anyone knows if the starbucks there is 24/7?

Hmms.. Should i on Jarryd for butter next wed? Should i on May for next sat? Should i on Sammy and kiki for butter next next wed(this one i jio one though)? LOL. If i on all, i'll be crazily in debt. haha! I'm really mad.

Go study lo! First time i'm so excited about going to study. Or rather, eager to get outta my house. My mum is getting on my nerve. So before i say anything to her that will make me regret in future, i should get out.

We study hard, we play hard.

2010-04-11T15:54:00.002+08:00

Feeling so restless now. All i feel like doing now is slack the whole damn day away. Seriously, wtf is wrong with me. I wanna know.... All these is just because i wanna know.... But maybe i'm just making everything else worse.

Clubbed twice in a row with kiki on fri and ytd. We actually went there at 2am ytd lo. Nutcase! But impromptu, i like~ Crowd on fri was really good, but ytd's one only one word to describe "CUI". But i guess kiki enjoyed it better ytd la huh.. RIGHTTT?? =)))))

I'm not angry with you la babe. So don't be silly. Its not really a big BIG deal, just that things were a lil outta our control so i kinda freaked out. (Oh ya, and that guy with his belly? He's totally FUCKING DISGUSTING. Let me see him again? I'll make sure he don't see the next day's sunlight.) Oh btw, i'm angry that we didn't take any pics AT ALL!!! How could you!! TSK.

Well, its really good to be a lil crazy at times i guess. Like really let loose.. Go with the flow..

Now, where's my Mr Momentum? I'm desperate for you. My Dooms Day is nearing. No, i should say VERY NEAR.

2010-04-11T05:53:00.002+08:00

I never knew a half an hour could be this nerve wrecking. I never knew i could feel butterflies my stomach in that kinda environment. I never knew.. I wish i will never know...

I'm sorry, but i've let you down. I snapped. I'm a player now. I'm really sorry.

2010-04-10T14:02:00.003+08:00

ElLo EvErYoNe!!

I'm So TiReD aFtEr YeStErDaY's NiGhT oUt WiTh My DaRlInG sIsTeR. =) We NeVeR HaD sO mUcH fUn BeFoRe MaN. aWeSoMeLy AwEsOmE! lEt'S gO aGaIn ToNiGhT sHaLl wE?

bUt I gUeSs My EmPtY sToMaCh MaDe Me A LiL GaStRiC-y LaSt NiGhT wHeN i GoT hOmE. tSk... AnD i MiSsEd ThE cHaNcE oF mEeTiNg My PrEtTy FrEn GrAlA aGaIn! =((( sHoUlD hAvE iNsIsTeD iN gOiNg My InItIaL cHoIcE oF dEsTiNaTiOn!

aNyWaYs, FoR u GuY'S iNfO, iF u CaN't CoNtAcT mE aT mY mAiN nUm, CaLl tHe OtHeR nUm. ThE 96188*** dE. i'M aLtErNaTiNg UsAgE fOr ThEsE 2 nUm CaUsE mY dAdDy'S CoMpLaInInG oF mY hIgH uSaGe Of ThE mAiN lInE aNd ZeRo UsAgE fOr ThE 2nD nUm.

Wa LaU.. ItS sO dIfFiCuLt To TyPe LiKe ThIs.. I gIvE uP. ThAt'S aLl FoR nOw! BuAiZ bUaIz~~

(hahahaha... relieving the olden days where the nutcases type like tat.. )

2010-04-09T21:53:00.002+08:00

My fucking phone is going bonkers again. -_-'' Cannot load my fb info page, cannot update my status, cannot tweet using wifi, cannot this cannot that.. Must be the damage done when it flew(again) to the floor last night.

AND PLEASE STOP ASKING ME WHAT HAPPENED! I have absolutely no comments so stop probing. I'm ignoring all smses all calls all msn all fb chats regarding this matter. THANKEW VERY MUCH.

Ok. No more nonsense.

@KIKI SEE YOU IN AWHILE!

2010-04-07T01:02:00.002+08:00

Can someone please kindly tell me where i can find Mr Motivation? I.ll gladly pay any price to buy it back.

Why huh? I think i.m really born to be a piggy but was misreincarnated to be a human.. Haha..

Reality check:
Exams in 29days.
Chaps completed - 5.5

Bravo! I think maybe i.ll quit sch like joyce, but i.m abit slow in realising i.m not cut out for studies.. Cruel yet another truth.

2010-04-06T04:06:00.002+08:00

Mac's for supper is love! ("v")

I've always like the mac session at my house area because we get to HTHT TTM! I like i like! But i don't know why, the 3hr supper somehow felt more of like a farewell meal. :( Don't like don't like!

You feel so weird tonight.

2010-04-01T00:58:00.004+08:00

ahhhhh i'm soooo sleepy and my flu plus ulcer is killing me.. But but.. there's someone out there still need a pair of listening ear. Well, press on. I know there are times when i'll need someone to hear me out too and the agony of having to bottle everything up is very miserable for one esp when one doesn't know what to do.

I'm not out to be kaypo ok! SHE WANTED TO TALK, SO I GAVE SOME ADVISE. I repeat, I DIDN'T START THE CONVO. Even though i think that guy is an asshole and wished to tell that in her face, i didn't comment much about it ok! If its my own besties, i would sure blunt it out loud to let them wake up and stop doing silly things that the other party won't even care AT ALL.

Deleting others from msn or refusing to reply smses is NO GENTLEMAN!

ps: pls don't tell that asshole i spoke with her.

2010-03-31T22:10:00.002+08:00

DON'T THINK JUST BY CALLING ME AND YOU'LL BE SPARED.

DREAM ON.

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Anyhow, my progress with my micro is pathetic. hais..

Can NEVER focus. FUCK.

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Anyways, i finally got off the hook from and had the late charges and interest waived even though i was the one who forgot to pay my credit card bill.. (shhhhhhhhhhhhh....) haha. my dad rocks!

But then again... argh..... SOOOOOOOO many things on my mind now and my body is really like failing me at this time. TSK.

Once again, our family is in crisis. WTF.

Luckily i'm here at punggol, not at hm. At the very least, there's some peace i get to enjoy here unlike any other places. yupps

2010-03-31T00:39:00.003+08:00

Want quick cash?

Lonesome George which is the last known individual of the Pinta Island Tortise, is the one of the 11 subspecies of the largest tortise in the world! Also known as the rarest creature on earth, the authorities will give out $10,000 as reward for the discovery of a female Pinta due to failure to successfully reproduce another one!

See... Go find one to earn that! LOL

Kidding la.. if its so easy to find, they would have found it.. But nevertheless, its true that there MIGHT still be some living in the wild..

Alrights, after this nonsense entry, its time for me to wash up and slp. After staying at SGH the whole damn day, i think i caught a cold. Feeling cold outside yet hot inside..

Oh my, y i dun have this channel at hm. TSK. Now its Barracudas after The Amazonia. SO INTERESTING! I swear i can watch this the whole damn day if i have this at hm (when im not out). I even gave up my Taiwan Long Juan Feng! hahahhahaha!!!!

2010-03-30T17:08:00.002+08:00

And so, the last weekend was good! Haven't had such wonderful weekend for a long time!! =)))) So hard to come by..

Clubbed at Powerhouse on sat with baby and jarryd plus 2 army friends. Quite nice! I've got good impression of the place since the 1st time i went there with the Savages. But sat was wayyyy toooo crowded! Initial plan was to go Double O because there's free entry but while on the way there we were told that its crazily crowded there so we changed to PH. I guess most people did the same to us that's why everywhere's so crowded!

Oh, i had my virgin visit to Movida that day too. Thumbs up! Because we left PH cause its overcrowded but decided to visit Movida to try and surprisingly its not very pack. =D

Then, it was bar-hopping with zs and daniel from the one at Serangoon Gardens to the O Bar @Kovan. I amazed at how nice a bar kovan actually have! We might visit there more often den Grapevine man.. (Its really lucky that Lance Wan DON'T live in kovan, if not, the consequences WILL BE dire) hahah!

Such weekends is LOVE!!! :)

2010-03-26T18:10:00.004+08:00

See see see.. See how ugly your smiles are..

2010-03-26T16:26:00.004+08:00

OMG... ITS POURING FOR THE SECOND TIME TODAY!

And so, the "upstairs" event yesterday with baby, kiki, jarryd and zs was rathering saddening, because its NOT FREEFLOW. Bugger Jon White's. Never state clearly. TSK! But well, at least we tried something new and i swear its the best view of SG i've ever seen! Mainly because the helipad(a real helipad for helicopter's landing i mean, not the club at clarke quay) is located at 73 storey of Swissotel and not like those enclosed area where you don't get to feel the breeze while holding a glass of champagne in your hands. Whee-o-Whee! =) Plus there's no railing all around! feels like you will fall off the building anytime! (not true though..)

I must say, the UK DJ K-Klass at New Asia's is POWER! Grooving to his latest release "Getting ready" is awesome beyond awesome! Though we had more fun laughing at the saggy auntie who was already dancing till half of her tits can be seen. LOL. Joke lo!! If i'm jarryd, i would really Stomp it! hahahha!! Oh! not forgetting MIMICKING(yes, its really spelt like this, don't doubt) how the angmohs dance. hahah.

Overall, weird combi, but not as bad as i thought. =) Maybe if we knew more people there it would have been more fun. But those people there are too UPS alr la.. How to know? LOL. And pics will be up at fb soon i hope?

Tomorrow double o got free entry at 10pm! =D I so wanna go!!

2010-03-25T01:10:00.007+08:00

I.m beginning to feel that drama series are REALLY bad influences. Especially on one's emotions. It can bring your mood up but it can also trample it to the ground. Making it almost impossible for one not to feel so emo at night! Tsk.

But i also learnt something:
懂得惜福的人, 上天才会让他得到真正的幸福。
This, i guess, is something i needa learn well. Hmmm..
或许世界上有比我所执著的还要珍贵。

Aiyo.. I know at this point of time my main concern and focus shouldn't be on this, but well, iphillia always do the wrong things at the wrong time la huh.. Yes yes, i needa learn SA as well, I KNOW. :( 学着点吧, 淑栾.

So instead of always grumbling about this and that, maybe we can change to another angle with a wider angle to view them. Everything would seem smaller and maybe you won't find it being much of concern anymore, you see. Wow, what an apt description i made! I.m impressed with myself! Haha.. Opps..

Someone asked me the other day:
'I've always wondered why'd you even wanna pursue a degree?'
To be honest, i was quite stumped at that, but it did make quite an impact on me. Its like i didn't WANT TO, it was more of like a NEED TO, like an instinct. Everyone does it, so i should do the same THAT WORKS IN THE SOCIETY too. Maybe that's why my heart isn't there. Hai...

Off track abit:
I need to stop cracking my knuckles and toes! Its bad bad bad!
And lying on my bed smells like.......

2010-03-22T01:28:00.004+08:00

Is it possible to have your blogger acc being hijacked? Cause it seems like i.m always experiencing 'Conflicting edits error' whereby its said to be due to another user is logged on too. Like wth?

Anyways, the short meetup with 8sistas is awesome beyond words! Its been really really really long since most of us can make it for dinner tgt. How good is good? We actually lost track of time while in the restaurant! A blink of an eye and its already 10pm.. So sad that we couldn't make it for the movie, but its ok. This gives us another reason to meet up right? :)

And and and, the Crystal Jade Korean Ginseng Chicken and BBQ restaurant is really good! I like!! Reminds me of the days in korea.. ;)

I like actionpacked-filled life. Mundane lifestyle is not my cuppa tea.

2010-03-10T17:06:00.001+08:00

Did you know AIG sold AIA to Prudential for 35.5billion USD?!

Maybe i.m abit lag in news but i only gotta know it just now when i received a letter from AIA. Well, nothing much was said other then 'its business as usual!'. But selling its business to its competitor says it all eh? Haha. Now, how much are the percentage difference in market share between Prudential and Great eastern now that AIA is gone?

That aside, i realise that its soooo difficult to get myself back in action! I would totally slp my week away.. Exams are sucha bitch don't you think so?

2010-03-08T20:45:00.002+08:00

Even as i'm reminiscing now, i had one of the most amazing night yesterday, reliving on our old memorable moments. =D

I'm kinda holding a different perspective over certain things from this moment on.

Simple is happiness. Taking things easy and one will be able to feel contented everyday. Life is short. Enjoy it to its fullest while you still can! =)

2010-03-07T23:37:00.001+08:00

This had been a wonderful weekend. One of the few good working experiences because i got to know new friends! :) Haven't been making much new friends for quite some time alr. Lol. I know i anti social la.. What to do? Haha.. But this weekend really makes me think that wearing a skirt really makes a difference in the treatment you get.

I got to know 7 new girlfriends on fri itself. The canon event at Resort world was huge! Haha. Damn scary but it was fun! :) oh.. And that's the day i first took krysler (dunno how to spell la), still can claim! I LIKE~ WAHAHA.. After the event, went to meet kiki and fren and off we went to phuture after dinner at 9.30pm(yes, thank kiki for the super late dinner)! Luckily phuture was sooo FUN with them! But i think it was really mean of me to tell baby that sentence that day! Sorry! Heex..

Anyhow, sat was very very very jialat. The OCBC Cycle For Hope event was... Omg-ingly.. The weather was friggin' hot and we had to run around under the sun, on top of my 'alr-wanna-break-legs-due-to-massive-dancing-the-night-before' plus not enough slp condition. Lol. Madness. Luckily it was for 3hrs only. Though it felt like a million years. Haha. Oh, i Made another fren again too!

Today was good! Was posted to Canon's (don't rmb what name)seminar @Raffles hotel instead of continuing at ocbc. Phew. Shorter hours den ocbc and i.m under shelter! :) This is a really zuo-bo event for us. Practically there for the sake of being there. Wahaha. I LIKE IT TOO! :D The photos taken by the speaker, May-yee from AP, were nice! She taught us how to capture things from diff angle, diff thinking. NICE~ *THUMBS UP*

But but but but but... One note to self. The money earned these 3days is lesser than what you spent this week Iphillia kwek! :( i spent almost 700bucks alr! More than half was for my credit bill though. And mummy's present! :( super broke.. There's another bill that's gonna be due soon! Argh...

Alrights.. I think from tmr onwards i needa get back to studying mood again.. Hai.. Wth.. There's pbf paper tmr and i haven't even study yet. So great! *pat myself on the shoulder*

2010-03-04T01:36:00.003+08:00

Canon training ytd was good!

Was actually allowed not to attend, but decided to go in the end. Guess it was really a wise choice. :)

Learnt soooo many new things! Cam are soooo damn difficult to use tiese days! And just as i intended to go there to learn more product knowledge so that i won't garang-gabok during the show, i decided to be the selphy gal again. Lol. Contradicting eh? But well, since i'm almost used to that super short dress, i might as well just work brainlessly.. AND GET BETTER PAY given the num of newbies who'll be sharing the commission with us, like seriously.

So, instead of being my fav fun-filled promoter, i decided to volunteer myself. Lol. I hope i won't regret my decision la huh.

Anyhow, going for training was still worth the while. Right, Mr Wan? :)

Random:
March, the month for women, is here again! So guys, be nicer to girls!(Even if its just for this month) Oh.. Do join in the Stop for Love campaign too! Can call anyone, not only your own partners! :)

Alrights, for now, back to my books! Slacked for 3days alr.. Bad bad bad! Theoretically, i should have SLIGHTLY longer time to study now, since daytime became shorter. Haha!

2010-03-02T13:04:00.002+08:00

I just read sth damn funny on fb.. It's one of my sim friend's status la.. Here's what she wrote:

When the sun is up, i.m all yours, macro, pbf, msm. But when the sun is down, i.ll go back to my hong zhong, fa cai, bai ban.. :)

Joke! Haha.. It send me laughing the moment i open my eyes.. And for a moment my mum thought i'm mad. Lol. But i think its such am apt description to our lifes now..

2010-03-02T00:44:00.002+08:00

This is the time for iphy's online propaganda-ism again.

I hate the way the image keep coming up to my mind.. :(

17th is kinda a day that i.m looking forward to.. Not too far away, yet seems a long time away.. 15days is all it takes!

There's so many things to look forward to.. Like this weekend.. I don't know if i should feel paranoid or should i feel excited. Lol. The Canon 30th anniversary on fri and the OCBC CYCLE event is making me rather paranoid man.. Hope my rashes would seriously subside by den! :( (yes, its still there.. Worse, leaving black dots all over my legs is no joke)

Not forgetting, there's next week to look forward too! Its the IT SHOW week again! Yeah! My working hours is weird though.. I.m working 2.5days.. If u guys are coming, do dropby and visit me! :)

But but but i.m so angry! Lalaland has been barring me from entry for the longest time! Argh.. Tell me y, you tell me you tell me?! :(

You, me, will it become a history?

2010-02-25T22:04:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone! Its my ranting time again.. :)

After cooping myself up at hm for 3days, i manage to cover only bout 80pages? Which is barely 1.5chap.. Tsk.. How huh.. Esp when i get stuck... I literally die there.. Lol..

ok.. Tv, bed and phone was a major distraction though.. Oh! Not forgetting all the food i've been munching on! I think i.ll gain like 5kgs if i continue this for the next 3months!

Its ok! Jiayou! 1.5 down, 49.5 more to go! (ah.... Its a damn long way to go!)

2010-02-25T03:00:00.002+08:00

err... I know this is abit retard to be asking.. But... What's FML? LOL.. i kept reading it everywhere but i don't know exactly what it means.. Someone enlighten me pls?

That aside... You? Of all people? Trying to irritate me with that issue? Thank you so much. It really made my day.

2010-02-24T16:24:00.002+08:00

How lazy can a person get?

If u r reading this, i guess u have a very good example.... Cause its me!

I wonder how come i can be sooo damn lazy.. Lol.. Must be some form of deficiency la.. Haha!

Ok.. Shall stop giving myself excuses. Prelims is NEXT WEEK.. and oh.. I just got to know it ytd. Haha! Best student ever.. Lol.. Wth.. Study study study!

Anyways.. I.m still gonna work this sun.. Unbelievable!

To james: i.m sorry sis! I really would love to go for ur production(since i was the first few to listen to ur own compositions! And ur fan!) but but i have alr given my word to them long ago.. Sorry sorry!

2010-02-22T00:26:00.000+08:00

I know its a tad too late, but still...

Happy 17th! :)

Its amazing..

Enjoyed the 'tio-owned' mj and dinner @nakhon even though my head is about to burst. Haha.

2010-02-20T02:47:00.002+08:00

I need to calm down... I need to calm down.. Iphillia, YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN...

That was really a major shock to me. I'm really not used to such situations.. But i'm fine i'm fine i'm fine.... ok, I'M NOT FINE AT ALL. Was almost on the edge of tears.... If only i could've fully blocked off all the noise.. I believe i won't be shivering like i am now... 5min ago we were happily playing mj....

Please please please be safe...

I want a hug asap. I need it..

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2010-02-13T16:04:00.000+08:00

Did such a happy thing today! I think i.m happier than the receipients lo! Haha. I hope my 2 bffs would like the small token specially delive me on this special season! Don't ask me y i did that, cause i myself also don't know! Lol. Its more of like an inspiration i had last night so i thought its like a good way to let them feel loved even though they don't have a special person to spend the day with. You girls still have friends ard you know! :)

It did really feel weird to be appearing ard void decks waiting for them though. Felt as though the sunflowers are for my bf like that, end up with a gal appearing. Lol! Pls make sure to make it a point to tell ur relatives we r not lesbians alrights! Haha! Sorry for all the lies to just get to know ur location babes. But i.m really serious bout watching that movie though.. :)

Spread the love, people!

Ok.. I feel so hungry alr.. Must replenish my energy liao..

2010-02-06T14:13:00.002+08:00

I can't seem to cross 300k for bejewelled! So angry.. Tsk..

Ok, i spent like 210bucks on cny clothes SO FAR. I.m meeting kiki in awhile to go bugis for further shopping. Ouch...

Oh ya, please don't watch PAINTBALL. its a frigging toot show. Cause of motion sickness.. Tsk. And Hachiko is not as touching as i thought! Double TSK! But at least law abiding citizen is UP. :)

And the intoxication at boat quay last night was good! Chill chill... Though i think it kinda worsen my rashes again. :X and and! The lady boss told me to refrain from cucumber! I nv knew cucumbers cause rashes! Faints..

2010-02-01T01:21:00.003+08:00

Has been bumming ard for the entire day. And yes, its the beginning of a whole new month already. I'm getting started to work on my 3-months-plan in order to progress up for my 3-year-plan. :) Wake up your idea, Iphillia kwek. Its about time u stop this nonsense and keep yourself together!

On the side note, i desperately needa get myself some cny clothes. I seriously miss Ms Jerlene man. WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN CHINA BABE?! YOU ARE SUPPOSEDLY MY SHOPPING BUDDY! :( damn emo....

To-do-list:
1. Get a hair cut
2. Pay credit card bill
3. Buy new clothes
4. Restock on contact lenses

Oh.. Talking about credit card, i applied for another card again! Finally got the card i really wanted, the cool looking Manhattan card. If i say i got it cause the previous one is a Visa and this is a Masters, you know i.m lying. :)

Food for thought, for you:
Tired tired, tired? What's your definition of tired? Physically? Mentally? Or tired of doing something or being with someone?

2010-01-29T02:26:00.004+08:00

Just got my life's first credit card bill. Gosh. I needa stop swiping it like free. Opps. Ok, teletubbies did warn me on this before. Heex. No worries, still within my capabilites to repay back. But i won't dare to say the same for next month, since i've got no pay coming in. Lol!

Anyways, i wanna get the Ipad! The thought of owning one of such thing is so cool! Ok, maybe to me only.. But i like! Imagine if one day we can be like those ppl in Avatar whereby u can transfer one data to another screen just a swing of a finger on the screen.. It'll so damn cool can! Lol.. I wanna get one! Save up save up.. :)

Alrights, maybe in my dreams later i.ll be able to own one.. Haha!

And i.m sooo inspired by the lil chat with 2 of the 3 musketeers.. Makes me wonder why i.m wasting my life away right now. Lol. Maybe, just maybe i should start sth myself too! :)

100% support on that event! Oh.. Maybe cause its an event that's y interest me more! Hees..

2010-01-25T01:13:00.000+08:00

BFF AGREES WITH ME ON THE ISSUE OF NEW YEAR'S EVE!! So... I.m not the over sensitive gal! I.m just like any other gals! Bleahx.. Don't care.. U better come appease me on that..

Anyways.. Its a great weekend spent! :) love love.. Awesome friday spent with rjt at 313 and slacking ard in town though the time spent was rather short.. Sat was a romantic night with baby in town again! The spy next door is a dramatic comedy by jacky chan, thumbs up! But its too similar to The Rock's 'The pacifier' yupp.. Today's gals night out with bff is good! Great shopping and chill out session at indochine in town AGAIN! Wahaha! I should do all these more often! So happy! :)

I finally have got some ideas as to what to get for cny alr! I need my pay to get everything i want! Let's hope not everything comes in black though! Heex.. I.m finally getting my life back after resigning.. Good good mood!

Ps: The checking of our ICs at indochine is totally OFF! -_-'' So embarrassing! Dots..

2010-01-23T13:48:00.002+08:00

And so, i went to see the doc this morning before lecture. I went in, pulled up my dress, showed him my body, and came out within 2min. Well, goes to show how my body fails to attract his concern. Haha! Don't think too much eh.. I meant my body rashes la.. :P

He said my skin is very sensitive, just be careful not to get in contact with dirt or dust and it'll be fine. So i was issued with cream and pills and was shoo-ed out. 25bucks for 2min, thanks doc.

2010-01-22T02:16:00.000+08:00

I.m getting out of misery v soon! Oh man.. Can't believe i actually stayed at the hospital from morning all the way till nightfall. Practically there since i open my eyes till i come back to close my eyes! But its ok, its alright, as long as no bad news come and she'll be able to be discharged on sat. Yeah baby! :)

Anyways.. I.m totally drained. Woke up, hang clothes, wash clothes, go there, come back, keep clothes, hang clothes again, fold clothes, unpack my 'punggol vacation' bag, thoroughly spring clean my room, bathe and finally hit the sack. I can't feel my back anymore.

Oh.. If you are wondering why would i clean my room in the middle of the night, its cause i don't have any choice. I kinda broke up with red spots first on my back, but now its all over my body. Nobody seems to be able to figure out if its heat rash or skin allergy or pure rashes. Some of it look like pimples, some look like red dots, others look like mosquito bites.. :( My skin is rather sensitive as some of you might know, esp to dirt. So.. Spring cleaning my room is the best solution i can find for now..

2010-01-21T00:06:00.000+08:00

Today's stoning session at sgh was super boring and mind damaging.. But since its the 'factory' that produced me which is under maintenance, oh well..

The ice skate session was great! So funny to be bumming my butt on the ground yet finding it fun. Heex..

And the frog porridge plus signature tofu plus roasted meat is like ultimate own-ness.. Wahaha.. Ok.. Now you know how i end up gaining another 1.5kg within less than a month. Lol!

Love love!

2010-01-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

It has been a really shag week. Travelling here and there everywhere is no kidding. Although i find living at punggol is rather cool, but the thought of getting outta there is madness. Lol. And the in and out, procedure of scanning my ic, getting stickers and stamp on my hand plus only 2 visitors at a time at SGH is irritating.. Not forgetting my supposedly last crazy ICE tue is killing my brain cells and giving me white hairs.

Kudos to xiao ming who has been so dilligent in fetching me almost everywhere everyday. :) 'how to get a vagina' wahaha! I.ll rmb the 100km per day. Heex..

Anyhows, I.m so tired!!

But.... I feel so motivated! I suddenly found a goal and i shall work hard towards my 3yr plan! :)

2010-01-05T00:57:00.003+08:00

I'm putting the blame to the weather that's causing my insomnia to stay since ytd..

Anyhow, i think i can predict my 2 huge ulcers r not gonna get any better, thanks to my... *ahem* 5-course-ferrerorocher-set-dinner. Ha!

Ok. I'm being supremely random here i know. But well, that's what a blog serves as isn't it? A ranting spot. Wahaha..

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And so, ytd night while i was rolling ard my bed, images of the fav novel-inspired series during our time, '还珠格格' just keep flashing in my mind like a Overhead projector. From scene one, where 五啊哥 shot 小燕子, Jumped to empress torturing 紫微, followed by the grand return of 太后, then came the miscarriage, and 萧剑 trying to assassin the emperor, etc. Omg.. I was almost watching the entire series all over again in fast forward mode.

Pls tell me i'm going nuts. But well, i can understand why i was reminded of this... Its coz.... *shhh* its a secret. And i'm not sharing with you guys.. Lol!

Oh ya, and if u think this my PMS-state, i can safely tell u u r so wrong! :) i'm in a rather good mood.. Thou i think i.ll die tmr.. I'm left with barely 5hrs of slp? Since 48hrs ago.. Ahhh~! Opps.. Put me on 安眠药 pls!

*Staring at that never fails to make my heart taste sour.. And i've been at it for too long..

2010-01-04T22:40:00.003+08:00

Yeeee... Can we not be so sama sama, my friend? Tsk.. What a coincidence man. Anyway, i like your "dictionary" post, if you get what i mean. =) I shall mimic you here.

Independence
–noun
1.
Also, independency. the state or quality of being independent.
2.
freedom from the control, influence, support, aid, or the like, of others.
3.
Archaic. a competency.

Doubt
–verb (used with object)
1.
to be uncertain about; consider questionable or unlikely; hesitate to believe.
2.
to distrust.
3.
Archaic. to fear; be apprehensive about.
–verb (used without object)
4.
to be uncertain about something; be undecided in opinion or belief.
–noun
5.
a feeling of uncertainty about the truth, reality, or nature of something.
6.
distrust.
7.
a state of affairs such as to occasion uncertainty.
8.
Obsolete. fear; dread.

Weary
–adjective
1.
physically or mentally exhausted by hard work, exertion, strain, etc.; fatigued; tired: weary eyes; a weary brain.
2.
characterized by or causing fatigue: a weary journey.
3.
impatient or dissatisfied with something (often fol. by of): weary of excuses.
4.
characterized by or causing impatience or dissatisfaction; tedious; irksome: a weary wait.
–verb (used with object), verb (used without object)
5.
to make or become weary; fatigue or tire: The long hours of work have wearied me.
6.
to make or grow impatient or dissatisfied with something or at having too much of something (often fol. by of): The long drive had wearied us of desert scenery. We had quickly wearied at such witless entertainment.

Perplex
–verb (used with object)
1.
to cause to be puzzled or bewildered over what is not understood or certain; confuse mentally: Her strange response perplexed me.
2.
to make complicated or confused, as a matter or question.
3.
to hamper with complications, confusion, or uncertainty.

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Seeing the toil that the examination fees is taking on him....... hais.........
(shut up.. i don't need anymore of your comments on this...)

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Its a good start.. Continue this, Iphillia. It might somehow just work like a magnet. But at least its an absolute stand.
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Maldives...... I wished upon the stars, which i'll never be able to reach.
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Ps: Let's hope 2010 will not be like how it started!